01/21

it was my first day going to school in like 12 days

Tuesdays i think are my one day where i'm at my lowest

i usually feel like crying in some Way (haha stupid puns) on Tuesday

the more i type it the more i realize how weird the spelling is

i mean Tuesday??? weird spelling

pretty. odd.

but yeah school is cancelled for tommorow

it's supposed to snow??? (my state like never has snow-)

imma just start venting now-

is it weird that i love and hate my fren group at the same time

don't get me wrong they are great ppl but omfg are they embarrassing and cringe af

they are fun to be around, but i can tell we probably won't talk when we grow up...

and some of them- we won't talk abt what one of mine did today

me and my computer class fren also got called posers today by some alt kids???

the alt kids at my school are lowkey evil

but yeah, even if you feel like jumping out of a window (i got asked that today but we won't talk abt that)

Stay Alive frens |-/

01/23

didn't have school yesterday if u didn't read my last entry

been eyeing these haha anyone who would see me in them would be concerned

my grandma asked if i'm turning goth 😭

she also said i looked pretty when i wore a green sweater bcs it was cold out and idrc

well exactly she said "wow, you're not wearing all black, you look so pretty."

uhm in other news the introvert i yap abt sometimes is in my group for the debate unit.

me and mah fren are trying to get her to talk to us but hey, i don't talk too much myself...

today i complimented her misfits tee. then my fren tried to carry a convo with her and sorta failed but not totally...

i like reading kewl yet cringe blogs from like 2008

some links:

  • mychemicalfreak
  • savedbymcr
  • meaning of cringey and nostalgic
  • also:

  • it's not a band, it's an idea :(
  • apparentally July 23 is mcr day???
  • mcr day :)
  • mcr day at the beach :)
  • Frank and Jamia's wedding (omfg bob's hair is long. rip)
  • i never liked daily mail...
  • cries in i wasn't-even-alive-yet
  • nothing says 2008 like a band's myspace being hacked 😭
  • guitar hero...oh 2000's
  • alr i need help....

    stay alive frens |-/

    01/24

    basically a boring af day

    the only exciting thing today is this email convo i had with my fren in 4th period, bcs it's boring

    so yeah imma let you read it

    (she gave permission for me to to leak it anonymously)

    as promised....the chat...

    Me: RAWR XD (sorry for the cringe)

    my fren: *screams in absolute utter terror*

    Me: *pulls out keyboard and plays g note*

    my fren: *gets depressed and throws self out window*

    Me: *Ryan Ross appears and catches you but then reminds you he's never rejoining Panic! and Ryden isn't real *

    my fren: *dies*

    Me: *sees mcr in the black parade*

    my fren: *cries happy tears*

    my fren: okay we should stop...

    Me: yeah... this could be a whole fanfic...

    my fren: yeah... don't get ideas

    actually there's a lot so imma put the rest in the box next so this one

    happy friday

    stay alive

    - Fren

    A few mins later:

    my fren: u like my new email pfp...

    Me: yeah *Pete Wentz has entered the chat*

    my fren: OMG PETE IM YOUR BIGGEST FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

    Me: LIAR I AM RYAN ROSS IS MY HUSBAND BUT LIKE SO IS PETE-

    Me: AND ALSO PROBABLY GERARD

    my fren: WHY WASN'T I INVITED TO THE WEDDINGS???

    Me: BCS BEEBO CAME IN AND TRIED TO RUIN EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM

    Me: ESPECIALLY WITH RYANNNNNNN

    Me: he was all I CHIME IN WITH A HAVENT YOU PPL EVER HEARD OF-

    Me: and I was like SORRY BEEBO ILY BUT YK WHAT HAPPENED IN CAPETOWN

    my fren: NOOOOOOOOO

    my fren: HIM AND THAT DANG FOREHEAD

    2 mins later

    my fren: what would you say to Ashley* right now

    Me: STAWP LIKING ME AND TALKING TO ME I HAVE LIKE THREE HUSBANDS ALREADY-

    my fren: Ashley be like: HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH??

    Me: MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA

    my fren: like when Ashley wrote a story Abt the two of you when she liked u in like 6th grade

    Me: DONT EVEN MENTION THAT STORY IT IS PART OF MY NIGHTMARES

    and then the bell rang...

    * Ashley isn't her real name. basically she's a girl who has done bad things to our whole group who someone (a person who's her fren) said likes me just today, actually. she's liked me and a lot of my frens other times b4 so I'm not surprised, but she denied it today and said she doesn't like anyone in our group at all (like dislikes us) (thank God) anyways this was b4 lunch and b4 she told us that sooooo. we go way back bcs obvi she liked me in 6th grade that's when all this started and that was a longggggg time ago