Saturday, January 18 at like 11:50 pm

basically i'm making a whole page just to vent bcs idek

so smth personal happened in my fam. it's private i don't really want to say what, not really directly has anything to do with me or like close family, but basically, i'm scared af about my future. scared my life won't be worth it. scared of dying young and wasting life. dying as just another part of the circle of life. i guess like i'm not scared of death, but i'm terrified of dying after having a useless life. I have this feeling of needing something, something that'll help me be successful. i have this sudden urge to spend the night researching computer programming stuff, i already take computer class but it's not that much. my other (delusional) plan is guitarist. i've been saving up 4 awhile for an electric one, and i finally have enough. im buying it. and writing some depressing ah songs. maybe i'll post them. maybe not. idk. I probably didn't need a whole crappy page dedicated to this, but i really need to be reminded of my motives ig. if u made it this far, i just wanna remind u that someone cares about you, you are worth it, please stay alive for me, you have so much to live for |-/

-fren