My 10th Week |-/

02/03

ahhh week 10 already??? that's insane

rlly tiring day

making my frens come up with some questions for me to answer my surveys page thing stay tuned

ordering electric guitar soon when i get it i'll have to put up pics

stay alive frens |-/

02/04

this is gonna sound rlly weird but just got done being depressed thinking of someone ik i'm never seeing again, i have no way of contacting or finding them

i wish i had closure tbh

it feels like i never really said goodbye

and fren, ik you'll never see this, but i miss you

oop now that song is dedicated to them

but yeah

(seperated this part bcs it got pretty. odd.)

people come and go in life, not everyone you know will be in your life
sometimes the person you feel closest to will leave
and you'll tell yourself it wasn't meant to be,
but you can never act like they never happened
sometimes you'll never really know this person
sometimes it'll last just a few months
and you just hope that they're okay and alive
and you wonder if they still think of you
and wonder if you'll ever find them again
or if they'll just be a memory
one that's hard to replace
and as much as you want to forget them and all the pain
especially hearing songs they loved, even if you grew out of the song, you still dedicate it to them
or remembering the joke you could only say to each other because nobody else understood
and wondering if maybe they're listening to it at that moment
maybe thinking about when you were there for each other
even if you didn't know them that well yet
you wonder what would have happened if you never knew them
you wonder what if they still knew you
if you could just still be in their life today
if you could get to really know them
know every single thing about them
if you could save them
even if they didn't really need saving
if you could just wish on enough stars
hoping you'll accidentally meet them in the most recycled way possible
imagining their face you barely knew
thinking of words never spoke
and realizing that maybe everything meant nothing
an learning that it's ok
which makes it way harder to feel better
and way easier to want to spend the rest of your life thinking about what is gone forever