May

05/28

omg. no way. i found a proxy so i can code again on a computer.

this site is super cringe, but hours have been put into it and i kinda like it. so listen up, i have a new system:

• i dont update daily unless i want to.
• all my journal crap is on this page unless i want to add a new page. i think i'll do it by month rather than week now. this will be in may
• i rlly need to fix a lot on this site,when i first made this i didnt even know what html is, ik a lot now tho
• i thought this list would be longer but i 4got what else i want to say

now imma start yapping abt personal stuff ig

doing guiatr lessons instead of dance next year!!! my mom wants me to at least do one class but i dont think im every going back there

im also not the weird closeted emo i was when i first made this site. i even *gasp* own mcr shirts now

also i actually know what im doing with html and css now. javascript feels impossible rn but im working on it.

also random but im even learning italian

also yay summer is in a few days only 5 more days left of school

anyways i'll see u whenever i wanna update again stay alive |-/

This is also from 05/28

basically me being pete wentz but as a strange teenage girl

it's not fair how far you are. It's not fair how close we are. why was I born across the sea. and why was I born so late. a three-year age gap shouldn't mean much to me. I mean, sure, it's legal, but is it right? I'm just a girl, and i know damn well you aren't a guy. I really shouldn't like you the way I do, I wish our plans to escape to warped tour would come true. Australia is all I want to go to. I know this is forbidden. i know this isn't conventional. you know, i haven't heard from you in 2 days, i hope it's just because you're busy and not because what i said last was weird. you'll never know how you keep me up at night. I shouldn’t be scared of the consequences if they find out about us. I've never actually felt this before, so i don't really know what to do, it sucks. i hate how i can feel without seeing your face. how i imagine your pink hair jump scaring you in the mirror like how you said it once did. I wonder how it feels to stare into those eyes. how you decorate your room. how you dress for school. how your home looks. I could never touch you. Never hear your voice. Never have you look down on me, because of how short I must be compared to you. last night I lucid dreamed. I tried to fly to you, but didn't make it. Even when everything is fake, the universe still doesn’t want us to be together. I think it was confused by the fact that i tried to kiss you like n those cheesy movies I've always hated. it's sad how I'd wait five years for you. too much happens in that time. I don't wanna lose you. I know this is just a summer thing, but i want it to be a forever thing.